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This place becomes more cluttered, and in some places careless. Not with Cancer by any means-- I find him to be a genius since I could never master such a task as VR.



However I find people getting more cocky and unfriendly. Sure the premium memberships are nice, but for someone still clawing up from the ground such as I, it's quite hard indeed.



I watch my level go from 50 to 20 percent as a savage and shrug-- I can't be as active as I once was. In fact I'm thinking of dropping it all to better suit my hectic pace as of late, but there are indeed a few friends I'd like to keep contact with.

From:

(Now invalid user)

13:25:21

Mar 09 2005

look, i know that you made that negative comment to my profile about having too many pictures because i said something about your portfolio, and what i said wasn't being negative nor was i the only one who said that. I just didn't think you could put those kinds up but apparently you can. so please try not to be negative on my comments again, or else i'll have to complain to Cancer about it.



reply (if I could send it):



"Waaaa-- Oh don't start shit with me-- I said there were too many pictures because it was hard for me to get through what you were trying to say with much in there.



It's not as negative as you think. It's a comment, not a stab.



As for my portfolio, I get that childish comment all the time-- though I haven't been asked to take any of them off yet, and several admin seem to like them.



If you're going to pick fights, pick them elsewhere.



You have been blocked."



Funny, it now says invalid recipient when I try to send her messages.

Though Niles and I aren't pregnant as we were first lead to believe (due to a stretch mark recently appearing on my stomach), we're both relieved and saddened.



Niles really and truly wants to be a father, and I want to give that to him-- just as I had in visions of us before this life-- but this time, with a happier ending.



I desperately want to be a mother-- being adopted, I feel once I had my own, I'll be far more complete than I am now just with Niles.



We fell asleep in each other's arms, curled on the couch watching a movie tonight. It was wonderful, but alas, I had to be ready for work in the morning, so home is where I need go.



I love thoughts and feelings of him before I sleep. Makes this existance worth living.